24 Oct 2023
https://www.thecut.com/article/becoming-a-dad-at-69.html
I read this and broke down a bit. Here I am thinking again on what should have been what was planned and what was decided upon. I was recently in Salt Lake City with a friend as I watched them slip mentally over and over again I couldn’t help but think about how different the trip would be with just you and I it was supposed to be us against the world, facing the world, embracing the day to day of being parents together. I traveled past the gate we took for our first vacation together. I watched as new parents got on board to travel and I kept think about how much I missed holding you and wished I held you more, knowing what I know now. I struggled a bit wondering how our kids personalities would be like, if we would have had a boy or girl.